Xanga’s Featured question for today. How Do you Make Love Stay?

Well techicly since its midnight it was actually yesterday but oh well1

One thing that people are ignoring that makes relationships fail is that people are becoming selfish they don’t rely on each other or one of the people in the relationship is just thinking about himself or herself and not thinking about the well being of the other person. The thing that makes love strong is when you think about each other and what each other need. Even if you really want something and don’t need it you should sacrifice that thing to give the person you love what they need. If you do it right you don’t need to think about what you need or want because the person you love will provide anything for you. This is the only way to make love stay is to just suck it up and stop thinking about only yourself, because thinking about eachother is what makes love strong. No matter what you do or what you say if you don’t stop being selfish and start thinking about eachother then it will break eventually.

I Had a Strict Upbringing.

I just had this thought pop into my head when I was thinking about siblings that fight a lot. I never had that. I never fought with my bothers and sisters, we allways got along. We weren’t allowed to say the word “Stupid’ or use the phrase “shut up”. I’ve been wondering if I am the only one that has had this experience. I just don’t see it happening in another family for some reason even though its so unrealistic of me to think so.

We were and still are the family that if you don’t get to know them then they seem like perfect and they seem like they have no troubles at all. We got mad at echother but we allways walked away or changed the subject. There has never been any physical violence, no swearing, or stuff like that going on in my family. I grew up being tought to not react when someone tries to push your buttons. I hear about these familys that have constant fights and stuff and it just seems so foregn to me. I wasn’t even allowed to date and now that I can I have no interest in anyone. It probably has something to do with the fact that I’m LDS I guess thats the reason but I know of a lot of familys that live around me that are also LDS that have fights.

No matter how I look at it it just seems so weird! Despite living that way for my whole life it still baffles me how we could maintain such a calm household all the time.  I guess I’m lucky.

Of course we do have our stresses like our money problems and stuff.

I was really shelterd. It has had negative effects like I don’t know how to socialize with people very well face to face but thats not the primary reason for that I’ve actually been abandoned and left by a lot of friends I’ve had so of course that probably has to do with a large protion but still.

We were allways tought to not focus too much on what the world thinks and likes and to focus on our own interests and not care about what is popuar. so I dont care about polotics, celebs, fashion, being popular and I do care about religion but I wont talk about it. Thats the effect of that.

I guess thats all  I have to say about this for now. I’ll probably think of something more in the future.

Hah! What a weird dream!

Okay so I had this dream and it was so random and weird!
Okay so we’re in college and things are going normally. I’m a little nervous because my best friend is back from NY I sort of stock him a little then this guy comes out of nowhere ad we start playing this really weird game where we try ad get out of this huge amount of chains its so bizarre.
Anyway so I get out and find my way to this room where SuperMario 64 is playing and the next thing I know I’m in the game as Mario. So I start running around and finally come to this 3 way fork. I start to go right but hear voices that tell me that no one has ever been there and its dangerous. I go anyway and eventually fall intoa hole and into another world.
This worls is rally dark and it has a lot of huge flying bolders and scary thing in it. Anyway so the view expands and I start seeing these LCD screens everywhere with the places’s ruler. I look around and see this huge castle made of Pepsi cans and I’m like WTF! The epsi cans are big. So Somehow I get out of that word and return to my won and I ask about the man that lives in the castle.
Apperintly that place was in chaos and there was a lot of fighting untiil one day when he fell from the sky. he started to get along with everyone and eventually united the many kings that are in that place so now that place is alright.
then the scene changed to something completly random. We see Mario and Peach playing wit thie weird contraption that can doa  lot of things.They press a button that plays Christmas stories. Then the next thing I know i”m in that room again with the SM64 and then the dream ends.

Weird huh?

I am NOT going to see the Twilight Movie!!

Its ABSOLUTLEY against my creativity! It will contaminate my image of Edward for the rest of my life and plus I think its to dark and I don’t like bella and none of it seems that great. Usually when a book I like is made into a movie (like Harry Potter) I usually am really excited to go and see but thats only because they seem to get it at least semi-like I pictured it and sometimes better than how I pictured it but this time I’m putting my foot down!

It is absolutely nothing like (I) Picture it and it will ruin my personal image. Next thing you know I won’t be able to keep images from the movie out of my head when I read the books. There is absolutely no way I can ever work with this movie at all. I am absolutely against it!

I’ve entered the Realm of Magazines!

so I’ve never really been that into magazines my whole entire life, I’ve been just waiting to spark an interest in one for a while.

So I was watching “America’s Next top Model” and they’re doing a photoshoot for this magazine called “Seventeen”. So these girls are doing this photoshoot and I’m like “Hmm I think I might check this out”. So anyway I venture to the site first impression, “wow, nice colors I like the look.” That mae me want to look around. I looked around and really liked it. I don’t know what it is about “Seventeen’ but I just find it interesting. I usually don’t care about fashion, or celebs, or stuff like that but its suddenly got me curious. I’ve never understood how people can drool over celebs, they just seem like normal people to me.

yeah, so that made me want to check out more magazines. I’m now subscribed to TIME on my google reader. I like National Geographic, and LIFE because I have an interest in photogarphy. I also like a few others but “Seventeen” is my favorite

If blogs didn’t exist then I would probably read them more. I’m not like crazy about magazines I just like them now.

“Seventeen” is what got me into “Gossip Girl’ I love that show!

The More I think about it the More My head Hurts!

Have you ever been in the situation where someone asks you what you want to for a career path you think you know what you want to do and you start talkng about it but the more you talk about it the more you think of other stuff you want to do? It happened to me the other day.

I was talking to a job councelor the other day and we were talking about my future plans. I started by saying that I wanted to be an english teacher but as the conversation progressed I slowly changed to a job where I could work with computers. So now I have plans to do something with computers like be a technician or a web designer, or something like that. I never thought I didn’t know what I wanted to do until I started talking about it it was so weird.

I now realize that I should have consiterd the fact that my interest don’t match up with m abilities that much. The only thing that i’m really interested in and that I’m able to do is stuff with computers. I havea  hard time learning but when it comes to stuff that has to do with comuters it just makes sence. I never once thought about the fact that I’m etter at stuff that has to do with computers than I am with writing. I love to write and I love to read, I though that I would want to be awriter but now I thinkI just want to be a blogger, a professional blogger on top of the tech job I choose. I think thts perfect for me.

Anyway no other thoughts on this right now. ha ha.

MY WRITERS BLOCK IS FINALY GONE!!!!!!!!!

AFTER MANY WEEKS WITH A BAD CASE OF WRITERS BLOCK (LIKE I MENTIONED A FEW POSTS BACK) IT IS FINALLY GONE!!

I have 3 new blog posts for your tomorrow! I would do them right now but I’m a little busy with stuff at the moment.  So you can party!

My Day Yesterday

My day was very interesting! Here are the events of today!
I woke up to my mom telling me it was allmost noon. I fell back asleep for a few minutes then got out of bed. I got on the internet, checke my messages, and then went on Solia for a few minutes. After that I went and had ‘Golden Puffs” for breakfast and then walked around the house for a bit. Its been sunny today it was nice.
After that I went back to my room and checked Google Reader. Then after that I made a long visit to the FailBlog and looked at some more things. I got 3 quarters of the way done. After that I had a sandwich for lunch and then went on solia for a few minutes. After that I sighned up on fuzzAcademy.com and played around and dressed my animal and played some games it was fun! Then I took a shower then when I got out I went and finishd looking at the stuff on failblog.com (or org can’t remember whitch haha) then and then I went on solia for a few minutes then brushed my hair and went to a church meeting for the LDS Relief Society. After that I came home and watched shugo Chara, and ate some beef stew. Now I’m just hanging out watching “What a girl Wants.” I don’t think anything else will happen today.

I’ll write about my day today tomorror. I don’t want to miss anything that might happen.

What the hay I’ll just do it now!

Okay so this week started out so crazy.
On Monday after the economy took a tumble for the worst the people that were funding the company that my dad has been working for lost all their money. So my dad has to get layd off his job and that caused a couple of problems for us.
My mom told me that I would no longer be able to have a cell phone and neither would she. So a day later we got out cell phones cut off.
We didn’t have enough money to buy food or gas so we got help (with food) from this thing called the “Bishops Storehouse’ Its an LDS / Mormon service that gives you food for free if you really need it. this food is usually very good. So we got an order and went o go pick it up the next day. I was the one that unloaded it and put it all away in various places *grumble*. Not much help there.
that same day my mom was having heart problems and she had to go get checked out b the hospital.
the previous night my sisters boyfriend dumped her and she disappeared for the day and the night but when I woke up she was at home. We called the police and everything. Her brain is a bit weird so its dangerous for her to just leave on us like that.
Other than that I’ve been just on solia Online and on Twitter updating and stuff like that.
I hd to re crate my bebo profile *grumble* I didn’t want to but its the only way that I can connect with my friends I was talking to on the phone earlier. It really sucks.
Anyway so if anything else happens I”ll write about it here.
Oh yeah I had hamburgers for dinner today and I found my friends missionary blog (hes on an LDS mission and writes on a blogger blog like this one to everyone). so that’s a plus!

Oh wow have I got a great post for you this weekend

I think m writers block is over now so Im going to start writing again sooon. I have an awesome post for this weekend

Why this weekend you ask? well because I don’t want to miss anyting that might happen this week its been crazy and somethig utterly crazy might happen again and I want to pack it all int one post so stay tuned for the triumphant return of my blog posts!

WAAAA! Writers block *cry*

sorry people I’m having like major writers block this week thats why I havn’t been writing lately. T_T

I have a Twitter!

I’ve allways loved people knowing everything I do all day. I had no idea that that was the main purpose of Twitter. I decided to sighn  up for it a few days ago. Once I got an account I realized that it was a website for just what I love doing (telling everyone what I’m doing all day)

So naturaly I update my Twitter a lot. and you can read it too I don’t really mind at all. If reading my blog isn’t enough and you want to know what I’m up to all day then go ahead and look

My username is liahnastarberry

I Dreamed About Naruto

Dont ask me why because I have no clue at all. Its either because I’m glad that its out of fillers or its that I have an obsession with him and its just gone to the next level.

The dream is a bit blurry but I remember him getting really tired from taining and me lying on the ground and sudenly noticing him, then his pants fell down and I let out the extremly random comment “I got a good view here” I said half laughing. I really did like the view. Another part of the dream was we were in some sort of gang or mafia and he had like this nice suit on and he looked bad ass pointing a gun at people. In another scene we were just randomly talking to eachother it was weird. In another we were riding in a boat not doing anything.  It was weird! He looked hot though he he!

Have you ever had like any really random Naruto dreams or any other anime dreams? Its so weird! I have the weirdest dreams they’re so bizarre!

She was my best friend…

almost 2 years ago actualy…

We met in the sixth grade. I got jealous of her because she was becoming close with my former childhood best friend Brook. I hated her, was mean to her, I only thought of her as a friend on occasion.

7th grade we didn’t talk much, we hung out with the “gang” devin, amanda (thats her name, and Brooke and me were pretty tight.

Amanda befriended rebecca and thats how it started. I was friends with rebecca and decided that it was okay to become amada’s friend, we started hangig out officaly in the 8th grade, we became best friends, really close. Then in the 9t grade when things were going well Amanda and Rebacca broke up and I was stuck with a conflict between the two, I went into the councelor many times. Eventualy I choose Amanda because we just hung out together and becae even better friends, I liked her this time and brooke moved away, we had drifted apart anyway so it didn’t hurt.

10th and 11th grade we were great friends

then in the 12th grade she got a crappy boyfriend named kenny and we started drifing apart, she got new friends, I stated to feel left out, she neglected me, got a job, was too busy to hang out with me and stuf and I ednded up beig left behind by her with a permanent scar. It still hurts to this day. She wont talk to me, add me on myspace, make any contact with me at all and I was the one that was such a loyal friend to her! I cry and stuff because I still care about her and stuff. I dream about becoming her friend again, I read her MySpace blog when it isnt set to her friens only, etc.

I think I’ll have to live with this scar until I die.

I’ve made a few changes to my blog!

I got rid of the video a day page and the picture of the day page and I put a link to my video blog (for cool video I find) so if you want to see the video of the day check out the blog its under the links o this blog under “My Blogs” category.

And Then I realized…

Okay so I’ve gotten into the really bad habit of not doing anything but being on the computer. I don’t even shower everyday like I used to, stuff like that. The other day my mom utterd the phrase to me I hoped I would never hear from anyone. “You’ve really let yourself go.” she said, and my world came crashing down as I realized just how right she was. I have let myself go in many ways. I havn’t even tried tomake friends, my eating habits are crazy, I goto bed at 3am, I wear mismached clothes and pajamas all day, I never work, Idont’ have a job, I don’t take care of my hair very much, etc.

What have I don’e to myself!? I’m starting to wonder that. What should I do next? I used to be the girl that ran to the school office and said hi to the secrataries every day, I used to be the girl that the teachers loved, the girl that played with m nieces every day and helped out a lot, I used to shower every day, and things ike that. I think its the fact that I got into anime and a lot of other things on the internet, I don’t evern read anymore hardly. I used to be famous for that. Suddenly I’ve become this reclusive person over the last 2 years.  Every since I got into anime my life has just been computers and stuff.

I’m starting to rethink my life, but i’m afraid of the outside world, thats one thing that has reversed. I used to go out and take walks every day. I have this terrible fear of dogs though so thats why I can’t go outside. I’m afraid to get a job because i”m afraid of people I don’t know.  I dont’ know how to beat this kind of thing its so hard. I kow that I need to turn my life around and becoem the person I used to be but I don’t know how to. I know I can changed but it might take a few weeks or months.

I sould start taking a hold of my dreams for once and never let go instead of just giving up.

My Annoying Rant #1

Every once in a while I have a need to do this so bear with me for this post. (its how I stay in aconstantly good mood all the time)

These questions I’ve always wondered. I’ve been wanting it to end even more nowadays, I think the world would be better off starting over after being destroyed. I think think it would be that bad. I think everyone of us needs to die. the world is betting worse and I’m getting tired of just watching while not being able to do anything about it. It drives me mad what is going on in this world. We have a suck U.S president that did a sucky job of taking care of the country. Our economy is failing and our health care system is as bad as ever.

I mean honestly! What is wrong with this world nowadays?! Its like its gone on a bottle of steroids. Not only that but it over dosed and went all retarded. People have no values or morals, and we just spend ever-day working day in and day out.  It seems as if the world has become power hungry, and restless.  And whatever happend to taking it easy on Sunday? It was a stupid thing to throw that out.

Our economy is going downhill fast and people are suffering more and more.

All the comfort that I have is a promise from my religion that the world will end soon. Thats all I have to hang off of. I sure hope its true. We need a few more natural disasters and, a really big war to snap us out of this or something!

I hate being 19!

Honestly, I don’t even look 19, and I don’t feel 19 and I don’t even act 19. Age is just becoming a number for me again. I still hate being 19 though it sux. I look back on my childhoood and wonder  how I had it so good. I feel bad for the new generation honestly, they are so sucked into video games, internet, TV shows, and a lot of other meaningless things. (not to say that the internet isn’t good for older people its just bad for the younger ones).

When I was young the internet was still a brand new thing, it didn’t exist until I was like 6 years old or something. I didn’t have all these high tech toys to play with like the new generation, I was rather crative with the tinker toys Legos, Linkin Logs, and blocks I had. My brothers had, Machbox cars, anda  lot of other stuff we would play with together. We built huge houses with out large amount of Tinker Toys that we had and some other supplies. I played old DOS games on my Windows95 computer back then. I think those games are funner than the ones we have today in some ways.  I still have some on my computer right now.

Kids are a lot more spoiled then we were back then. I feel that the prediction from Intell that we will all be BORG in 2051 or something like that, will come true.

Life was so much easier back then, no major wars, not excessive, swearing, sex, violence, and other things on the TV, the shows were actualy worth watching and the cartoons were awesome. The New Kids have it pretty badly these days, being born into war, and all sorts of bad things. I now know that I’m really lucky.

HORAY! My Firefox troubles solved!!

I’ve been quite miffed the last few weeks, (probably months I lost track of time). My add ons just werent installing. Apperantly I didn’t have the brain to think of going to the MozillaZine forums and ask for help. I finaly rememberd and they were able to tell me exactly what I needed to do, they even explained (very well) where the problem was and they told me how to get there.

I finaly noticed just how useful those forums are. I’d used them one other time when I was getting Invalid file hash errors when I tried to install add ons back when I was on Firefox 1.

My browser is back to looking like its cool self. I’ll do a screen shot for you some time but now I’m to lazy.

Star’s Google Chrome Test Drive.

I was quite surprised when I heard about this browser yesterday. I immediatly looked into it. I read the whole google chrome comic, checked blogs, constantly had the webpage for the download up even though it was down until today. I’m sure I’m not the only one that was refreshing the page like crazy. 

It does need a lot of improvments to stack up to FF but i”m sure they’ll get around to it. I will be expirimenting wit this browser more but mainly just on my usual sites. If I do decide to find a new website I’ll check it on FF first becase I can’t feel safe searching the web without my WOT add on and my add block plus and some others I have. I’m surfing withough ABP rightn now but I’m fine with it for now. I’m still going to be using FF for about 80% of my internet browsing though.  As time comes i might or might not switch completly, depends on if it eventualy has the add ons I need anda  better bookmark interface and some other things as well. 

I think it needs more theme choices than it has now, the blue and white default theme of GC will bore me eventualy. I have NASA night Launch theme on in my FF browser. 

I do see where they say its faster than other browsers though, I know that this little baby does run faster tha my FF browser. I also like this feautre that no one has talked about so far as I’ve seen to have multiple home pages. Pages that automaticly open when you log onto GC.  Right now Gc is an interesting product for me but Its just at its (as I call it) “Boring Betas” stage right now.  

I’ll be talking more about it in the future.